When I left Singapore to come to New York, I had not really thought about my life very much. I was in my own world. I had nothing to compare my life to. I never had to live alone. Sure, I had problems but they were manageable and somewhat standard. Life was relatively undramatic. I must have thought it would be the same anywhere else.

When I left Singapore to come to New York, it was simply a matter of "Would I be okay to spend time away from my family and friends?" and "Would I be willing to give up all my savings for the experience and training?" And with some deliberation, the answers were, "Yes!"

When I left Singapore to come to New York, it was like an adventure. There were some obstacles. I had to experience snow for the first time, hunt for apartments, move several times, pay rent, figure out the crazy subway, audition like mad, get through all my classes at school, visit other states nearby, etc.

I can't imagine what life would be like had I chose to stay in Singapore. I feel I've been opened up to so many things now. You can't be in a city like New York and not be able to stand up for yourself and make things work for you. It's tiring, but it has built my character. And I feel more ready now. For myself, for life, for things to come. But I also feel tired. Tired of inconsistancy in my life. Of constantly figuring things out and making ends meet.

Yet, I know I've chosen this and want to see it through. At this point, I booked a show that's going on tour around different States in the US. What fun it would be visiting different places before my work visa expires in July. What a great close to the year that I get to work. It would be so easy if I knew I was going back to Singapore for sure after all this and have my life somewhat return to normal again. But no.

I've decided to apply for another visa to allow me to stay and work in the US when there's work. More complications, more blows to the pocket, more frustrations, etc. But it's all for a better tomorrow. It's what I've chosen. I like to earn the fruits of my labour. And I get bored if life isn't a challenge. So before I live out of my suitcase again on tour, here's to working at Mary Poppins merchandise and Cater Waitering. It's been such an adventure and eye opener. And I've learnt so much. I will miss the times dearly. But I'm not staying because I will get idle.